February 14, 2011
By the date alone, I assume you know what today is. Yes ladies and Gentlemen its D-day err um I mean V-day. Someone pass the vodka so I can drown my sorrows in alcohol. For those of us who are not happily, sickeningly in love this day can be called Singles Awareness Day and really I realize I am alone. I don’t need a whole day to let my truth marinate.
On a happier note I finally got my tattoo over the weekend; It reads “Never forget to love yourself” on my left wrist. I feel as if I should make it “Never forget to love yourself- because no one else will”; a succinct summary of my life thus far. This is routine for me. Every Valentine’s Day (all of which I have spent alone) I go through the day dragging my feet, wallowing in self pity- Yet somewhere in the back of my diluted mind I hold on hope that a magical text will pop up on my screen. It would be sent from my man of the moment, with him confessing his undying love for me. From there on we would live our lives blissfully in love… yeah I know pretty unlikely, unless my life was a Disney Movie.... It's not.
What is making this day even more unbearable are three things:
1) It’s beautiful outside. A mild, sunny 52 degrees, a perfect temperature for a romantic stroll in central park
2) I am surrounded by girls…remember Fashion School
3) The only man wishing me a Happy Valentine’s Day is Jim… my Dad.
Maybe because love is blind, it’s having a hard time finding me. Honestly it is the only explanation for my loveless state… unless there’s something I’m missing. My good friend Mitch once told me “you don’t find love you fall into it”…cheesy, corny, and the truth. It seems that once you stop seeking love out it comes to you. I just can’t help but seeking it out because I want it so badly; so I guess I’ll just be trapped in this loveless cycle forever….. Eternally single.
XoXo-Limardi <3
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